i want to ask for a suicide chat room so i can share my experiences?

[Elisha T]

and maybe get advice and help from others on where to go and what to do before i go to far i know i am getting ill, im 23 and have been ill on and off since i was child but it got worse at 12, and has continued to deteriarate, online chat is alot esear becasue you can be annonimous and i have a fear of peoples oppinions of me so i prefer to not see on there what there thinking. it isnt as easy subject but it needs talking about and i think a well hosted chat room for that would help, give each other tips help and advice on how to conquor the blackness that takes over some of us and us who feel tired and sick of being ill and being in pain. so there you go if you know anyone with a chat room that i could access that allows open suicide talk please reply.
i do have a g.p but she just says theres nothing she can do, meds dont work and there is no where she can refer me so i am alone and i think its would be good if it was used properly no one tends to understand eneless your going through or been through it.