My bf cheated on with a massage girl.?

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I have a bf for over 3 years. We've been very very close and loving towards each other. Last last week, he went to HK for business trip for over 10 days (We live in Shanghai by the way). He acted completely normal while he was away and we still sms each other and chat on-line sometimes as well. When he came back, he bought me a lot gifts and still acted like nothing happend. But today, I found a condom from HK and it was clearly brought from him. I was questioning him, and his initial reaction was, "I dunno where does it come from". And I keep asking, and he admitted he got a massage in his hotel. And he told me there's nothing else. And I keep questioning him, he finally admitted he had a hand-job while he was very lonely and slightly drunk. He apologized immediately. I feel like he has a dirty soul now, he aced normal when he came back home, and he doesn't even look guilty. Also he apologized immediately once I found the condom, I don't even feel the sincereness from it. I still love him deeply, he's my first love and the only man in my life so far. I dunno what do to...

 

[pickmefirstplz]

the only reason he apologized was because he got caught