Wants vs ...Wants?

[woo]

Time for another prattle...

So currently I am debating on whether to sate a certain want, but it will still leave a similar one hungering and frustrated

For those not paying attention, I been on a bit of an absence streak...To be specific, I got a HJ/BJ a couple of months ago, but I haven't gotten laid since the start of the new year. Part of it was a self made promise, which I have fulfilled, but also in part because I haven't felt the need/urge

Well this week, I've found myself waking up in lumber yard, something i haven't in literally monthes. Naturally the though comes to mind: HOBBY! I have been wanting to see Rebecca since I started in to this, but there's a few others that have caught my eye/interest (Winter@Splenid, Brandi@Mirage and Muse)

I want the the touch, the feel, the scent and taste of another human body. I hunger for it...But I also want real. The Bj/HJ session made the latter aching apparent. I the touch of someone important...

Before you get into me about it, I know I'm not as bad as I think I am...I cannot shake the feeling/thought that I am unworthy of love, and any woman would be better off without me. I know it's not true, but it's how I feel. It's a stone I keep chipping at each day.

So there we have it, my pondery for a grey Wendsday...Do I satisfy my physical want, only to aggravate my want for real, or wait to satisfy my longing fir a real that I cannot have?

But for now breakfast and the gym...Possible naughtiness later.

 

[Zortrox]

Hobby first, so you're not out of practice when it's someone with whom you want things to be Real.

 

[NellyE]

Dave you are not going to build a spaceship, dont go down to science with seeing SP. It is very simple, pick the lady you wanted to see and enjoy your time. Lastly, stop thinking too much. When you see a SP she is not there to judge you, she is there to make you feel like king.

 

[rc wwe heel fan]

Something I forgot to add in my first post.

When I consider hobbying, especially as of late it 'feels wrong'. Not morally wrong, ethically wrong, or deceptive. It feels like I shouldn't be doing it. I don't think I can really explain my inhibition.

 

[Dark Mistress]

lol well then you are in the wrong hobby.

 

[anasttqq]

Well that does present a dilemma.

Maybe you should look for a Fuckbuddy. More personal than hobbying, but casual enough that there's not a lot of pressure.

 

[Exio]

Go see a real beauty once or twice a year, relive it in your fantasies until you see her again. Fake is okay, treat it as an amusement park thrill or video game.

We are similar in many respects, I suspect you don't want a real relationship but once in a while you want the intimacy which goes with it. You'll have to settle for something fake which is fine if you don't beat yourself up over it. You aren't hard on yourself for playing video games or reading fictional books, they aren't real either.

Just getting a bj or hj doesn't involve enough intimacy, you're only using her and not reciprocating enough. Getting a fuck buddy takes a lot more work but the search can be interesting if you're into that.

 

[Patrick]

Well worth the time and energy :great:.

 

[A G]

Go see Becky, she'll make all of your inhibitions go away, far away, far far away!