pissedmomma
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With the big 3-Hour event coming up next week to celebrate 10 years in the Hobby, I thought I would be great to recall the moments that helped me change my mind about retirement last year and it's also the reason why I chose Malaysia for my 10th anniversary session and why that decision was never in doubt.
Last year was a hard year. There almost was never a 10th year. If you would have asked me back then, I would have half blamed myself and half blamed other factors. In restropect, I only blame myself. Too much time was spent over analyzing things and I started to dwell on many of the negative sides of things. This started overwhelm all the good feelings. A sense of deep apprehension set in and retirement seemed an inevitable outcome.
I kept asking myself why I was spending so much money to be unhappy more often than happy? It was a during a session in late October last year with Malaysia that I got a reminder of why I love this hobby so much. She was feeling under the weather that day and she could not offer a GFE session. She was honest and straightforward about what she could offer and her sincerity was endearing.
There was no one else I could have stayed with that evening. It just wouldn't have been the same. I was very happy that she still put her heart and soul into the session regardless of how she was feeling. I tried to tip Malaysia for the amazing session under the circumstances. This is one of those moments that shocked me. She turned it down. She counted the 20's in her hand and as soon as she realized she had a few too many she put the extra money back in my hand and told me not to worry about it. (She figured out I was trying to sneak the extra money past her) I told her it was okay and she should take the gratuity but she refused once again with a smile and a peck on the cheek that would have made the most hardened of pooners melt like butter on the stove.
Several months of apprehension and tension towards the hobby simply evaporated within her smile. It was a sucker punch of an epiphany that hit harder than Muhammed Ali in 63. I suddenly realized just how foolish I had been. I was always 10 feet away from true happiness in the hobby I never realized it until then. It was a Grinch of a moment when my love for this hobby grew 10x that day. I quit dwelling on the bad and started thinking about all the good and truly wonderful ladies there are in the hobby.
I remember looking back with big smile directly into Malaysia eyes thinking only one thing, "Sweethearts rule the world" and I've never looked back since.
Malaysia, never doubt it, "You're one of the Sweethearts that rule our world"!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year All!
Cheers,
- Fiddy
Last year was a hard year. There almost was never a 10th year. If you would have asked me back then, I would have half blamed myself and half blamed other factors. In restropect, I only blame myself. Too much time was spent over analyzing things and I started to dwell on many of the negative sides of things. This started overwhelm all the good feelings. A sense of deep apprehension set in and retirement seemed an inevitable outcome.
I kept asking myself why I was spending so much money to be unhappy more often than happy? It was a during a session in late October last year with Malaysia that I got a reminder of why I love this hobby so much. She was feeling under the weather that day and she could not offer a GFE session. She was honest and straightforward about what she could offer and her sincerity was endearing.
There was no one else I could have stayed with that evening. It just wouldn't have been the same. I was very happy that she still put her heart and soul into the session regardless of how she was feeling. I tried to tip Malaysia for the amazing session under the circumstances. This is one of those moments that shocked me. She turned it down. She counted the 20's in her hand and as soon as she realized she had a few too many she put the extra money back in my hand and told me not to worry about it. (She figured out I was trying to sneak the extra money past her) I told her it was okay and she should take the gratuity but she refused once again with a smile and a peck on the cheek that would have made the most hardened of pooners melt like butter on the stove.
Several months of apprehension and tension towards the hobby simply evaporated within her smile. It was a sucker punch of an epiphany that hit harder than Muhammed Ali in 63. I suddenly realized just how foolish I had been. I was always 10 feet away from true happiness in the hobby I never realized it until then. It was a Grinch of a moment when my love for this hobby grew 10x that day. I quit dwelling on the bad and started thinking about all the good and truly wonderful ladies there are in the hobby.
I remember looking back with big smile directly into Malaysia eyes thinking only one thing, "Sweethearts rule the world" and I've never looked back since.
Malaysia, never doubt it, "You're one of the Sweethearts that rule our world"!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year All!
Cheers,
- Fiddy