REBA, Im in the same boat your in. I was engaged and owned a house with a man then my world came crashing down around my ears at the age of 23 and had to move back in with my mother. I started Massage school right before my 24th bday and graduated last Dec. I cant imagine doing anything else with my life. After I posted this back in Aug. my car died (my dad is still working on it 3 wks latter...) my dad offerd to loan me one of his 2 AVAILABLE cars if I got a real job. Needless to say Im still down a car and have been very inventive on ways to get to work. I will not walk away just because of this....and have begun looking for another car just in case he decided to make it XMASS before he gets done! lol I sat down last night and looked at my past two weeks income (after my rent for my space) and realized that I made with 17 clients what I was makeing at my old job in a 2 week pay peirod (80hours)!!! Like you I think I will stay with my NOT SO REAL JOB!!! And I want to thank everyone for their words of encouragment. It has made a world of Diffrence to me!