When is engagement party and bridal shower? Are you nervous about introducing her to your family? You seem like a decent dude, but in need of a good shrink. All of your reviews, here, and before that, in Caerf and Terb, consistently point at a guy so deprived of true affection, and companionship, seeking it unsuccessfully in a manner that I believe you yourself consider embarrassing and humiliating (paying for sex), and endeavour to mitigate this misery through the reviews that you share with this "community"....your words. Seeking solace here is sick. And, you know it. I know that you put me on ignore, but still read my shit. Read this, for your own good: Try seeing these multiple escorts and mpa's, without having to rush home to your laptop and sharing the experience. Without his virtual validation and approbation, I think you will realize just how addicted you have become, and how badly you need treatment.