Lost,
I learned many years ago that life is simply a battle of interests. When the police arrest someone for marijuana posession, and then these same police officers go to a bar and drink alcohol to celebrate the arrest, you are witnessing a battle of interests.
When I book an escort and she bumps my appt in order to fit another client in, asking me to wait for her because 'she needs more time to freshen up', that is simply her putting forth her interests in trying to take both appts over my interests in wanting to see her at the agreed upon time. When I refuse and cancel the appt and go see another girl who doesn't bump me and doesn't make me wait, I am puting forth my interest in having my appt time respected and not getting sloppy seconds.
That's all life is. People, made of chemical elements, driven by their own interests, competing against others in the same predicament. Then, we all wither and die. And new people, made of the same elements, driven by similar interests, take our place.
When Barack Obama moved to Washington DC, the first thing he did to his new home was he built a wall in front of it. I am not fucking joking. He built a wall. This is the same man who labeled anyone who supported a southern border wall as being racist and xenophobic. Wall for himself and his family, but no wall for anyone else. Secret service protection with guns for his family, but again, anyone else who carries in his hometown of Chicago is to be arrested and put in jail. A battle of interests. That's all it is.
When I ask Angela to marry me and she refuses (35 times and counting), it is just a battle of interests between the two of us. Me, wanting her to say yes, and her wanting another man in her life and not me.