Well one incident that really kind of humbled me and slapped me in face.
This was about a year or more so back.
I really got into a bargirl. I Usually i keep my bar spend limited, single outing would never would cross 2k-3k, But use to go often in a month.
Now this bargirl was about 19, was about 8-9/10 in looks. I just got smitten by her. Rajsthani girl.
Now she would stand by me and we would chat etc. I kept throwing money at her. Not much like 2k-3k but this went for a while.
It was a usual timepass for me, but i was getting drawn to her. One day i spent 10k on her.
Two days after i again went to see her.She was all over me, all the slyness, nakhras etc etc. Again blew 10 k on her. Made her dance twice. She danced like i am a king.
This happened third time too. Now asked her lets meet outside, she agreed. Said wait till my getting off time 11 o'clock.
I stayed, now around 10:30 pm got a call a cousin had a heart attack so had to rush out.
Now next day went again to see her. I entered the bar. She was on stage, miming words on stage. I had dressed up to impress her, had 10k with me.
Now there were two young guys.couldn't be older then 25 one table. Few other table were occupied too. I called her over. She came showered 2k on her, all hunky dory till now.
Now asked for other 2k bundle.
Now those two young guy guys asked for change of 20 k, all in twenties. Now my girls saw all this and suddenly left my table and went to the stage again to mime words on song.
Those two dude showered money on girls. They were sitting right next to the stage. So my girl got lots of attention.
Now i was watching this from my table with 2k in 20's with me. All the girls surrounded Those two dudes.
And what i saw from my table was that bargirl was so money hungry, that her eyes were fixated on bundles lying on sofa. Her eyes were literally on cash on sofa.
She didnt even looked at me, or even made an excuse.
Those two guys blew 20k on girls, and again asked for change of 10k. My girl would have got at max 10k out of them but she left me high and dry.
My girl was all over them, all smiles. And found new Greek gods.
I stood up and Now i decided to leave, and got out of the bar. Went to a resturant and had food, sat there. Thought about it for a while
Wasted around 40 k on her, was ready to take out her that day or at least find out where it leads.
But what i saw that day was her eyes on cash bundles. Her totall ignorance of me. The day i was outbidded by rich dudes, i turned a papuer from a king.
Since me being a small guy, i cant throw 10k- 25k-50k or few lakhs on a girl in a day or a week or a month. Thats why i skip high end OB, way outta my league.
Decided to quit mongering that day as i felt like an idiot. What was i doing.Why i blew 40k on a girl? To bed her once? To have a romance with girl half my age? Why i had dressed up to impress a dhandhewali.
Felt really stupid and decided to quit. Quit mongering for like 3 months or so, but fell back in this quicksand again.