Hello aardogfsu how is it going?
I was the same as you on my first tour (2004) I saw these amazing Asian creatures and was totally besotted. Caucasian women do nothing for me. Anyway I would have a few beers and towards the end of the evening I would always find myself down in Soi Croc, not really knowing why. Getting towards the end of this holiday I found myself down in Soi Eric and was approached by this very sexy creature who had amazing legs and was simply quite beautiful. We clicked straight away and she asked me back to her place which freaked me out a little but she seamed really nice.
First off however we went to the Tiger disco where she looked after me extremely well and it was then that I first discovered that she had a bulge when you felt up her dress from behind. This turned me on even more and I told her it didnt matter if we were same,same. Once she realised this she gave me more affection then any girl had provided for me all holiday and we went back to her place and had a night in which I will always remember as it was my first. (Ladyboy virgin)
She actually frequented the place with 3 other tgs, ladyboys and they could not have all been kinder to me.
However in the morning, once sober, I freaked out having had my first 'homosexual' experience and it really destroyed the rest of my holiday as I became pretty mixed up.
However once home, I dealt with it and came back to Patong in 2005 to experience this again. I did and had an incredible experience with a petite ladyboy from the Moulin Rouge show.
As explained in my post under the 'Was I too harsh" thread I don't consider myself gay. Men do nothing for me. A ladyboy, even with equipment, is as feminine as any girl, unfortunately they were born with a penis!
It is Thailand, no one judges anybody. If they do judge you they are usually envious that you have such a beautiful creature attached to you. Life is too short and now you will have to wait until you are back in Thailand. You should of gone with your instincts.
Remember ladyboys are highly strung and have feelings, emotions as that of a girl, possibly even more so, so treat them well with kindness and they are fantasic partners.
The sex you have with a ladyboy with a penis will be 'gay' sex, it will have that 'extra' dimension that straight sex dosn't have.